only love can hurt like this

(only love can kill)

i.

they say it’s okay to hurt from time to time but it feels like this is consuming me alive. like I’ve been walking around with a hollow space in my bones, where my heart is supposed to be, crying my eyes out at 3:30, tight hands gripping my mouth silent, no one hears a sound. it feels like i’m dying a slow death, my heart only beats out of my chest, every part of me feels numb and yet every part of me feels alive,is this love?[maybe]. i feel nothing and everything, tired and at a fleeting war with myself, an inexplicable emptiness. only love can hurt like this, they said. so how do I stop this?
tell me,please,how do I stop this?

[when will it stop?/will it ever stop?/does it ever stop?]

(part one of four)

~V