iv.
in my head resides a realm, an escape, right now it’s midnight here, 5:00am in the real world. i plod along the sidewalk on these streets, the stars only shine underneath.i’m walking away [from you] but we’re burned into each other’s DNA.what awaits me is an abyss, as i melt slowly into your darkness,i’m not afraid, i like the hurt and the pain, it’s familiar and it’s safe. i’ve built a home here, in this sadness, in a whitewashed building overlooking all of the madness, a door to a room on the edge called ‘only love can hurt like this’.
you reach into me, your presence asphyxiates my head, you wear my heart around your neck, like an entitled trophy,
just let me go, please?
my blood is boiling down to poison, deadly to the touch, every vein in my body wraps itself around what is left of cavernulous bones [i’m holding on to nothing], cells suffocate themselves, i can’t find my breath.
i’m drowning in your love, i’m screaming but no one can hear, there’s nothing more left to burn. you plaster me with your temporary lies, if it’s not killing me, i am only half alive. my body paints a mural in itself, a mural of your love,is this it?
is this the anatomy of love?
[is this really love?]
[it’s dark, it’s raining red]
(part four of four)
~V
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